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Sunday, January 09, 2005

K is kind of an asshole. I go back and forth between wanting to slap her and feeling sorry for her. I can't wait for her to leave. I've already been confronted with two other people who need housing. I'm so tempted to open up my little house to them, but at what cost? The price is too high. I can't afford to give a piece of myself away like that.

Did I ever tell you about EM? What a nut. I met her when I was working in the ER. Her energy was so intense. Looking back, I can see that she was almost manic. It didn't take her long to move in with me. What pissed me off about her, about all these people who always end up on my sofa, is that everyone likes them so much. I don't mean it that way. It's not like I wanted people to dislike them. It's just that everyone, especially the sofa surfer had this attitude like she was so fantastic I was obligted to serve her. Each one of these people who've ended up freeloading on my sofa had this attitude of entitlement.

They all move in, take over, cause problems, get snooty with me, and then finally flounce out in a huff. Good riddance.

Why do I attract these people? What is it in me that draws them near? I don't know. I feel so bad for G and J but there's just no way I can invite them to stay.

I need to get steady employment. I need to get myself stable.

I was going to tell you all about EM, but she bores me. I can't be bothered now. It all seems like a long time ago. It was.

confessions of gd * 15:47

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